since i’ve blogged, and i don’t know why i’m picking 7:58am to start. actually, i do know why. my roommate just left for the summer and things are never going to be the way they were these past months. this group of girls will never be together again doing the things we do like staying up late singing songs, derping around making weird noises, eating ridiculous amounts of cat cookies because why not, and yelling at each other for dumb things. i didn’t think i was going to be sad, i tried to hide it, yet here i am writing a blog post for the first time in months. i’m sad to see her go and know that suite 1105 will literally never be the same. through all of our petty problems and drama, i literally wouldn’t have had freshman year any other way. i’m staring at my roommates empty side of the room. literally, nothing there except her furniture that was in those exact spots when we moved in. the feeling i have is weird. people are supposed to be happy when school is over, right? well, wrong. i feel only sadness. it makes me long for my friends and family at home who i know aren’t going to change every May, but stay constant. i guess what i’m saying is that i’m afraid of change. but these girls will never know how much they have changed my life, and created memories for me that i will never forget. i need them to know that i will be here for them whenever they need regardless of where we are in the world at the time. it’s going to be lonely in a suite by myself after having constant noise putting me to sleep for so long. it’s going to be different, and different is not my cup of tea. but i love them, and hopefully that is enough to keep them around.
